i want..

someone to cuddle with me in bed,

all night and all day.

and someone who will accept me for all my craziness..

and who will always be there for me,

and who will kiss when i want,

and hold me when i need to be held.

and who will..

just be with me,

and love me,

and I NEED TO FALL IN LOVE.
anyone?

:]

obsession.

I've got a very odd obsession with pictures of people smoking..

I just can't explain it, something about it is so attractive..

wdydwyd?

why do you do what you do?

What sort of stupid question is this??

Why does anyone do the things they do? I can sure as hell tell you i have no idea why i do the things i do.

to

I do the things i do because:

- i can't help myself.

-this could be my only chance to do it.

-i just don't care.

-i don't know how to change.

-i want to find out who i am and who i want to become.

-i need to experience everything in order to figure it all out.

But really, no. Technically, these are just all excuses for me to use to explain all the stupid stuff i get into. It would be nice to know why i do the things i do. Or why anyone does the things they do. But i can't explain it, i can't even start to explain it. I guess really the only thing i can say is:

I do the things i do because that's just the way i like to do things.

Not a deep explanation at all. Just the truth. Ah man, sorry for the rambling. I've obviously had a rough couple of days. The stupid decisions and the lack of sleep are all catching up with me.

Introducing..

The Swindlers:

(Out of Orem, UT)

Door: Vocals

Chris Fallo: Guitar

Marc Leach: Drums

Jason Clift: Bass

Check them out, they're amazing:

http://www.myspace.com/swindlersut

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Swindlers/104650666235114?ref=ts

Favorites of Today:

Top Favorite Moments of the Day:

1. Being scheduled to work 6 hours, and only working 1.

2. Trying to find Tiana & Joe's wedding reception, and getting lost multiple times.

3. Actually finding the reception, and seeing the cute newlyweds. (And seeing long lost friends Amelia, and Sarah.)

4. Going to coffee twice in one day.

5. Hanging out with just the guys. (Though i could do without all the gross boy talk, and video games.)

--Chris freaking out at my driving, trying to jump out of the car while i was going slow, and trying to eject Kieren from the car while i was going fast. (Also Chris not giving up til I took him to Del Taco, and trying to convince me to take him to the hot pots.

--Door telling me "Don't worry, you'll get it someday" And then not explaining further at all. He says he can't tell me til i understand. Alright, this one was actually just frustrating but, what can ya do.

--Marc telling me he'd give me all his money if i had 18 of his children.

and finally, top moment of the day:

Driving home with Kieren singing Red Hot Chili Peppers at the top of our lungs. The best tradition i've ever come up with.

Birthday Celebrations

There's something i just love about birthday celebrations.

Except for when i have to sneak into my house at 4 in the morning.

I smell trouuuble.

birthday boy doesn't like pictures,

but marc and me doooo.

though we probably shouldn't.

I really need to start taking more pictures.

Happy Birthday Lolo!

Happy Birthday to my best friend Lawrence!!

The Big 2-0.

Even though i know he'll never read this (unless i tell him to) i figured i'd give him a nice little shout out. Since he's one of the best friends ever. So here's a nice little list as to why i love him, and why he should have the best birthday ever:

-He's always there for me. If i need him for coffee, or to talk to, or if i'm lost in the mountains, he'll be there for me, always.

- He goes on the most ridiculous adventures with me. If i want to go up to random cabins, or into the mountains, or onto peoples roofs, for no apparent reason, he's right there beside me. He's even right beside me when i find random drunk people at the gas station and want to hang out with them..even though we've never met. Not too many people would be there for that.

-He makes me laugh more than any one else in the world. (Mostly because he's retarded?)

- He gives great advice. I was having this big huge dilemma last night, and although he never texted back for hours when i asked him what to do.. he eventually got back to me with "just do whatever makes you happy.."

Theres plenty of other reasons i love him. But, i've got to go get ready for his birthday lunch..

Lunch: completely unsuccessful.

4 out of 14 people showed up for the lunch. So we ditched it and got coffee. You just can't expect anything from our group of friends, nobody wakes up before noon. Hell, i don't know how i woke up before noon.